Thursday, October 30, 2003
mY |iFE
update:
argh... im going half mad... nothing is right... only left 1 more day of sch... n i haven even said a word to him for so long... it's not like im dumb... wads wrong with me... im just afraid that he will avoid me n decline my invitation if i invite him out or anything... anyway... where got chance... so many ppl like him, im just another girl from sec 1... not as if im THAT noticeable anyway...
i dunno whether i should ask my temasek guy frens out, dunno whether they will say yes, they say no, i feel bad n somehow embarrassed... dunno wad to do... weird, i feel totally normal asking my gmps guy frens out, but i dunno when i ask my temasek guy frens out they will find it irritating or a bore... well.. i'll just ask n see... after all, two whole months, dun keep contact, friendship will gorw further, thats what im afraid of... n next yr changing seats n all tad... i dun wanna!!! i like my place the way it is... so many good friends around... its harder to keep a good friendship when u dun sit near your guy friend... cause u dun talk as much... hai... i really dun wanna lose their friendship... just hope they will agee to going out for fun, whether it is the moives or even to the beach just for fun, hope they will agree... so irritating, now is always girls ask the boys go out together, if not, then cannot have fun together with guy friends. when the guys go out, always go out by themselves, nvr ask girls out together wan... well, guess it will only happen in upper sec...
im worrying now... really worrying... maybe im worrying for nothing... but... i think i shld worry... anyway, how would i now how the guys r feeling, for all iknow, they might be happier to sit in a group, whether im around oso doesnt affect them... seems that way...
well got new glasses...
/10:23:00 PM
